Paranoia
I started smoking pot at about the age of 13, not that badly at first but by year eight i never saw a sober day. I smoked till i was 17 and by about 15 i knew my mind was fucking up so i forced myself to stop. I had to go to the school counsellor to get my shit back together but it didn't help, so i said to my self stuff it i'll just start smoking again and i did. That's when shit really started to go down hill, i couldn't even walk down the road with out thinking someone was watching me so i would aways be ready to attack, then there was the feeling that my friends were always talking about me so i left the group and started smoking by myself. Now i can't remember anything between my 16th & 17th birthday and then there would be times where i wouldn't know what was going on at all, i would just blank out. What made me stop smoking was quite a few things, i suppose, but the biggest thing was burning my self three times by accident and they were bad burns. That really spun me out so i stopped but i am still paranoid all the time and my memory is still shit but now i'm 19 and haven't smoked for just under two years which in my mind is great.
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You did good to give up it shows that you are still in control of yourself. Keep up the good work.
that's something a lot of naive people don't realise: long after you give up the drugs, the paranoia stays with u. it's not like u can control it either, it takes your whole view of reality and destroys it. you can't tell the difference from reality and paranoid thoughts. well in my case anyway. i've been off all drugs now for roughly 5 or 6 years.
Wow, great job!!
Pretty much exactly the same as me. Smoked it, got paranoid all the time, memory loss, lost friends, didn't recognise myself anymore. Quit now and feeling great. Memory still sucks but no longer paraniod! yay!
that's awsome you could tell yourself your body can't take it anymore. i experience myself getting lower and lower fail more and forget more it gets to a point when you can't take it anymore and you have to do anything that you can for YOURSELF..! well done.
if the paranoia stays with me forever whats the point on ever quitting :(
maybe if u dont smoke every day then shit like this wont happen!
marijuana affects everybody differently. you can't take something that happened to you and claim it happens to everyone. if we did that even legal drugs like paracetamol which has killed countless amounts of people would need to be ruled out. case closed.
its too easy for people to blame their problems on drugs. chances are you may have an underlying mental illness. seek help.